Self note

Dear Blog

As days goes by I'm in the process of accepting my fate and reality. If Allah says this is the best for me, so be it. I pray hard that, less negative and rumour of me in future. If people ask am i affected by what happen? Im not gonna lie that i do, infact i need to learn not to be affected easily. But this is a good lesson for me, to pick myself and not to trust people easily. Cause even your own shadow leave you in darkness. All is gonna be well, in sya allah.

Athirah

Dear blog,

I really hate when someone make mistake and they don't own up to their mistake. That one thing, then they put other people to blame, cleaning their shit. People like this might be thinking, they are the most perfect people in the existing world. Oh please, have you reflect yourself in the mirror? There's not a single person who is perfect, everyone make mistake. So think twice before you do something.

Lots Of Love
ath

The quote of the day. Something to remind me.

Lots Of Love

ath

Dear Blog,

Finally i decide to blog back after 3 years. Reason why? I start to realized as i grow older in my young adult life, no one can really be there for me always. Well i can't blame them thou, everyone have their personal life things to do. That's why i don't really share my problem with people that frequent like i use to. Cause i feel like i'm just a burden to them, i really do! Now i know why people say, they wish they stay like a child forever.

Nowdays i just feel like im so useless. Keep making mistake and get on to people nerve. Sometimes i just wish i could migrate oversea and start anew leaving everything behind as past. Life mean nothing to me now. Living my life day by day without any purpose.

I use to be the happiest girl in my teenage life. But now things wont be the same. im still searching my purpose, motivation and adventure of life. Pray things will be figure out soon. Amin.

Lots Of Love,

ath

Te Amo 'ONE'

Now i realize that i really love 'ONE'~
I felt really stupid, like damn!
When i know, that he gonna be leaving soon for good
Still, im having small quarrel & fight with him
Then now he leaves... its really freaking hard to say "Goodbye"
Serve you rite ATYRA!!!

Serious, this is the first hardest cycle of my life
That someone had to leave for an important reason
The most thing i regret is that we had not been talking to each other
Like we use to for about a week or two & out of sudden.
You telling me, that your leaving
Talking about memories past which was filled with
Up & down, shout, laughter, joys and flames
Really when you remind me, im really touch & wanting to pour out...

Nevertheless, you told me to contact you in FB
So yeah, pray the best for you in serving aye c:

If you read this, remember to neva ever forget me
I hope this wont be the last of you...

Love Atyra (Your Awwwsome Chick)

imma happy supafly chick

Hello Hellooo c:

Well glad to say im back to ma imma happy superfly chick C:
Although sometime i always remember him as he still around me during fridae and the weekends
But never than less life have to move on, i must have the mindset to accept that...
He just ma full-time buddy and just a part-time lover.

Nowdays i am easily pour out man
i dont know why, it just meant to be out
But when i think back, it is a small matter that i am crying about
In ma past, im a strong and find way to overcome feeling
Maybe im just stress over school assignment, work and lifetime
I just hope i will put a strong heart in facing ma obstacles.

Todae is the first day of fasting month, OMG! The three Malay guys in ma class
Really man, testing ma patience sey, They keep teasing me sey in class
They know that im trying ma best not to say vulgar language during fasting month.
ISH! irritated ar hahaha.

Ouh ya, I kena match make by ma classmate cici nattasa and nazirah
With one guy by the name of Khairi, he is mix Malay with Japan
But nah, i dun want to be match make sey.
Let me find by myself :)

Love the way you lie

It had been 3 days now, i didn't talk to him. Seriously when im day dreaming, looking far at the open space. All I know that the next thing happen is feeling blue occur in me, it is freaking hard for me. I dont know what that i had done until you take a distant from me. Enuf of this dude, can you just voice out what bother you alot? Sometime i saw you eyeing on me from far but why we are not close like we use to be... i freaking miss those time dude where we joke around, share stories and give advice.

On the second day of not talking to each other, i make the move to ask why?
Me: It been 2 days you didnt talk to me. Why sey?
You: *Turn head left to me, scared to make eye contact, looked infornt back and shrug shoulder*

Me: *Sigh and looked left*

You: *Tap legs*

Me: Annoy *Gave sharp look at you*
You: *Looked right*

Amacam gerek kan, i look left you look right. HOBBY PAH!?!

I need answer not silence.
I guess i just play part in your silence aye, until you want to end the silence.

Izwandi

Sorry people i just need to let it out from ma heart.